We all make mistakes, every single one of us. Some of our mistakes are trivial like putting mismatching socks. Some have more of an impact, like biting into a freshly nuked hot pocket. Others can have dramatic and catastrophic effects on your life, marrying/dating the wrong people. I’ve made every single one of those mistakes, sometimes more than once.
I’ve had horrific outcomes in love. I can make excuses or say why this probably happened. In the end, the past is the past. Apparently, I attract crazy. The first wife was insanely passive aggressive and refused to confront issues. I dated a few people in between the ex-wives. The soon-to-be ex-wife had secret bank accounts, hit meds from me, was a complete alcoholic and refused to take responsibility for her actions. Half the shit she told me were lies. This (now) ex-girlfriend flipped out. Whether intentional or not, she caught my house on fire before being hauled off to jail for assaulting an officer of the law. I’m now being told she’s always had a problem with alcohol, much like the second wife. To be blunt, I suck at dating.
So, where do I go from here? Well, forward, duh! I don’t know what forward looks like, but I’m going to find out. I’m not a monster. I’m taking care of the ex-girlfriend’s dog until her parents can get up here and take it with them. I need to fix the house so I can sell it. I need to fix my situation before I move on. No more dating for me for a while. I need to get some shit done around the house and around my life before I can be truly happy. Life moves on, and so shall I. There has been too much drama in my life, and I need to get all that calmed down. It might take 6 months or a year, but I’ll get it done.