I cannot get over how a single conversation can either make or break a mood, or even a day. A conversation with one person might put you in the most foul mood you’ve ever experience. It could fill you with sadness and despair. You couldn’t have imagined this person could ever be so selfish, or insult you in that way. Even when they try to compliment you, they find a way to put you down. When they apologize, you still get blamed. “I underestimated the extent of your surgery, but men don’t have a very good pain tolerance anyway.” Yes, those words were spoken to me yesterday as an apology. When confronted, she couldn’t even see it as a put down.
On the other hand, you can have a conversation that puts you over the moon! Things are just positivity every which way the conversation turns. Laughter, banter, and intelligent conversation is all over the place. These types of conversations lift your mood. They make you want to keep talking, no matter how many hours it has been. There is no blame, no put downs, no negativity whatsoever.
What I find fascinating is that these two conversations happened minutes apart, literally minutes apart. I was starting to think there was something wrong with me. How could I keep having all these negative interactions. Then, I realized it was certain people. Certain people, especially toxic people, can ruin your day. It’s all about them. The complete opposite can be true about other people. Some people never turn off the praise. The feed on helping people and nurture the relationships they build. All I know is that I’m done with toxic people. They can go fuck themselves with a pineapple.