Trying to Figure it Out

When I was in my thirties, people told me I should write a book. They never really said why or about what. They just listened to a story from my past and would sit there in disbelief. I did write a book; I wrote three. Ten years ago, I thought I had everything figured out. Boy, was I wrong! I thought getting divorced, having my job sent to India (thus losing it), and being sued for $250,000 in the same year was bad! Again, I was wrong.

I have never been afraid to take certain risks. I’ve almost died more than a few times, mostly due to stupidity rather than acts of violence. I have started more than a few companies, most of which did not go as well as I had hoped. I’m going through my second divorce, a divorce that makes the first one seem like a Disney fairy tale. One of my son’s had a bone-marrow transplant at nine-months old from an extremely are genetic disorder, has had more surgeries than most people have in a lifetime, has cerebral palsy and autism. 

When I say, I’m trying to figure it out, I really am trying to figure it out! How do some people skate by in life while others, like me, struggle with just about everything? I do not know if I’ll ever figure it out, but I’m going to try. I’ve documented my struggles throughout my life on my independent blog. I’m not afraid to put myself out there. I’m not afraid to fail. My ego and pride might think differently. 

I really just want to provide a perspective some people might not think about. It doesn’t matter if I’m talking about aliens (both terrestrial and extraterrestrial), politics, religion, science, or any other topic. I am infinitely curious, and I want to learn as much as I can. I’m not content being someone who takes everyone else’s word about something. I want to figure it out for myself. Trying new things is how I love to learn.

Just log this blog that I’ve done for my trilogy of books, I’m writing on for me. I hope I can help someone else who might be struggling like me. I hope I can help a parent who’s kid has a disability. I want to leave this world a better place than when I arrived, even if I do not think I can make much of an impact. I have a dark sense of humor, and I like to use humor to make difficult topics a little easier to stomach. Life can suck. It can beat you down. Sometimes, you just have to grab a log chain, and teach life who’s boss.

Grabbing a log chain to show life who’s boss

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