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Trying to Figure it Out
When I was in my thirties, people told me I should write a book. They never really said why or about what. They just listened to a story from my past and would sit there in disbelief. I did write a book; I wrote three. Ten years ago, I thought I had everything figured out.…
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Multiple Streaming and my Brain
People might think it is odd, but sometimes, I don’t know what I’m thinking. I have a flow of thoughts in which many thoughts flow at the same time. Sometimes, I go back and forth between thoughts when a third thought comes into play. It’s like watching TV with two or three picture-in-picture boxes. If…
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Boundaries
Boundaries are such a simple concept, yet so difficult to implement. I am envious of those who have boundaries and stick to them. I’m just now realizing that I do not have any boundaries, per say. I think I do, but I clearly don’t. People seem to help themselves to my time, somehow convincing me…
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Only the Good…
Billy Joel had a song in the late 1970s called “Only the Good Die Young.” It reminds me of my current predicament and why there is such a large gap between the sentiment within this country and what the people in power tell us. I try to do what is right. I try to help…
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Life Lyrics
Music means different things to different people. Some of us have songs that cut deep into our souls, leaving a scar that can be good or bad. Today, I was/am angry. Why? Because everyone expects everything from me. When I try to get some peace so I can exhale, I’m trampled with distractions. People do…
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Assumptions and Idiots
Generally, I think people are fucking idiots, especially today. It is amazing how little people know despite the massive amount of data available to us. Back when I was a kid, the internet was something very few people had access to. Encyclopedias were something that only the library and rich people had. When my parents…
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We Might Need RI (Real Intelligence)
Like every intelligent person that has seen Terminator 2: Judgement Day, I am skeptical of Artificial Intelligence (AI). Am I super scared that AI will infect robots and learn how to build an army? Not really, but the possibility is not zero. It seems like all we hear about today is Elon Musk, Tucker Carlson,…
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Pain
There are different types of pain: physical, emotional, and mental. I’ve never felt so much pain in my life. I cannot go into a lot of detail here because a lot of things are pending. That, in itself, is painful. I haven’t had more than a few hours of sleep a night for a while.…
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Fucking Scared
I can’t sleep. I’ve been up for almost two hours (since before 3:00am). It’s almost serendipitous that I was scrolling through the streaming services and stopping on Limitless with Chris Hemsworth on Disney+. It seems to be about dealing with stress. Right now, I’m sucking at that, horribly. My stress levels are way up. I’m…
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Christmas and Holidays
It’s easy to think Christmas is a magical time of year full of friends, family, food, and gifts. That’s what we’re taught when we are growing up. Christmas has been bastardized into a holiday that has all but lost its original meaning. It’s almost offensive to say that Christmas is about the birth of Jesus…