Category: Reflections

  • Everyone Has a Vice

    Everyone has a vice whether they admit to it or not.  Those who say they do not have a vice, either haven’t found it yet (youth and inexperience) or refuse to acknowledge it (denial).  There are several typical vices: drinking, drugs, gambling, eating, and sex.  There are many others.  Some cannot get enough of Camaros and…

  • Why We Do Things…

    I’ve been questioning why people do the things they do.  It has always amazed me how dumb people can be.  Recently, I’ve taken a more self reflective view and questioning why I do some of the things that I do… or don’t do.  There are many reasons for many actions or inaction.  Not going into…

  • Can’t Believe It…

    I guess it doesn’t matter how many times something is read, the mind fixes mistakes on the run, and it is amazing how many stupid mistakes are left.  I wish I could be perfect every time, but I’m never perfect once.  I hope it will all be fixed before the final publishing, but knowing there…

  • Hope and Time

    I hope for a lot of things before time unapologetically stabs me in the kidneys and laughs at me as those hopes dwindle.  That is very melodramatic, and in most cases, those hopes are not based in reality.  I really hoped someone would just give me a billion or so dollars before I turned 21. …

  • Molds

    Yesterday, I discussed how people try to put others in molds based on experience and first impressions.  Everyone is guilty of that, including myself.  I do not like it though.  I have always been one who likes to shatter molds.  I do not like being held to what a stereotype says I should be.  Stereotypes…

  • All Judgy

    I was accused of being “all judgy” yesterday.  Without going into the details, I can understand why; however, there is a saying about only have one chance to make first impressions.  When you find out something that just breaks that first impression so violently, it is difficult not to be shocked.  In my case, it wasn’t a…

  • A Bright Side

    The last few days have been hell for me: a slow, psychological, self-induced torture.  I can’t help but worry or think when I know it should be left alone.   Sure, they make pills for that, but I hate taking pills.  Pills might fix the worrying, but they will hose up something else.  Worrying keeps me…

  • A Good Day… sort of

    Well… I was not the happiest of campers today.  Too many things on my mind.  With a plethora of complications and thoughts, my stomach was all tied in knots, and I have barely eaten or slept in days.  To top it off, the water in the wood burner decided to boil today as a door…

  • 100th Post and Editing

    I just realized, as I was going to start this post, this is my 100th post.  Should I be thrilled or depressed?  Frankly, I doubt anyone gives a shit.  It isn’t like this is my 100th episode of a TV drama that I star in.  Not to be negative, I have stuck with this for 100…

  • 90% is Easy… Last 10% is Hard

    I do not know why finishing tasks is so difficult.  It’s like the first 90% is super easy and just flows together, but that last 10% kicks me in the ass.  “The Amanai Deception” is written.  First round of editing is done.  I just have to fix the pieces, reread, and fix the last remaining items. …