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Friends and Family
How can someone that I’ve never met seem more concerned with my wellbeing than people who live with me every day? I use the word “seem” to give the people living with me the benefit of the doubt. (To be fair, my boys were at their mother’s the week of my surgery.) After surgery, I…
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And, I know where I stand.
Some people look at addiction as a disease, an affliction, or a choice. In a matter of speaking, it’s all three. There is a choice to use, but there is also a genetic predisposition to become an addict. I was addicted to playing a certain online game back in the late 90s. It was a…
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I survived
Well, I survived the surgery (so far). Sitting still, I do not really feel any pain. It aches like having the hernia, but slightly more. When I move, that’s when it hurts. going from a lying down position to a sitting position is the most brutal. If the doc talked to me, I don’t remember…
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It Just Got Real
I just got a call from the preadmissions people for the surgery in two days. That was 40 minutes of answering questions, most of which I couldn’t figure how it was relevant to a hernia surgery. Who gives a fuck if I broke my finger for a hernia surgery? Then, some of the instructions were…
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Silently Fuming
I can’t. I can’t find the words to articulate your donkey-fucking pissed I am right now. This might be a long one. I woke up at 4:30AM this morning the the sound of breaking glass. I jump out of bed, grab the gun, and do a sweep of the house. The cat had pulled on…
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Calmly Fuming…
I’ve stated before that there are selfish people and selfless people. It’s pretty easy to spot the differences when you’re looking. I’ll give an example most people will understand before getting into the details. Sex is supposed to be fun, correct? We’re talking about consensual shit here. Nothing in life is 100% except death. I’d…
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Failed…
Wow, I failed to get to my point in my last post about inspiration. Maybe I was frustrated or too drunk to articulate my point effectively. Regardless, I failed at my mission. I mean, it was almost midnight, and I hardly ever stay up that late anymore. Let’s try this again… For me, inspiration to…
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Inspiration
I am a firm believer that you cannot write about what you do not know. What’s the best way to know something? Experience it. Good, or bad, experience is the mother of all teachers. A good book, a good poem, and a good song cannot be written without someone going through some shit. The most…
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Suicidal Ideation (Calm Down!)
First, calm down! No, I am not thinking about ending my own life; however, I have come to a closer understanding of why someone might. I have known people who have ended their own lives. Before, I could not even comprehend why someone would do such a selfish thing. Then, this hernia happened, and it…
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Holding My Intestines In…
The more days that pass after finding my hernia, the more annoying it becomes. I’m trying to be smart. I do not want to push myself and cause an emergency or a greater issue. I’m not fucking with my life. I’ll cut splinters out with a knife. I’ll climb up on ladders higher than I…