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Absolutely Gutted
I can’t go into much detail right now, but I am absolutely gutted. I can’t eat. Sleep has been rare. The only motivation I have is to right a wrong. It wasn’t even my wrong. It’s a wrong done because people have their little cliques and like to power trip. I failed to get anywhere…
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The Point Between…
It seems I have lived my life right in the point between success and failure, between glory and catastrophe. It’s not on purpose. It’s not like I love living in massive amounts of stress, watching my hair turn more gray by the month. I would rather have peace and tranquility. It’s my fault though. I’m…
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Fuck Everyone and the Horse They Road in on.
Do you know what I’m tired of? I’m tired of hearing everyone’s self-righteous advice that is based on a tiny sliver of actual fact and filled in with assumptions and bullshit. For example, I’m being told by people who are in miserable relationships who I should and should not date. Go fuck yourself! Your life…
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When Help Isn’t Help
We have all been arrogant enough to think we are helping in a situation that we were unequipped to handle. “All you have to do…” is often a phrase that is used when we think we’re helping people, but we really aren’t. In our minds, and from an outside perspective, we think the solution is…
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A Light at the End of Incompetence
What in the actual fuck? Today has been a cluster fuck of a circle jerk! She was told she couldn’t call me because I’m the ”victim.” In order for her to do so, I’d have to fill out a form. I went to five different government buildings, talking to seven different people only to find…
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Today Was Exhausting
I cannot describe how exhausting today was. The arraignment hearing was today; another one is Thursday. I broke down more times than I can count. I finally got electricity restored to the house, just in time for a cold front and freezing temps. A load of laundry was done. I cleaned some floors and made…
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A Letter to My Love
Dear Love, The first thing I must say is, I love you. The second thing I must say is, I forgive you. Please forgive me. I cannot understand what exactly happened that night. I can recall the events that happened that night, and I know the immediate outcome was of that night, but it was…
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“Without You, Everything Falls Apart”
Up until last week, she had never heard that song. She was/is a fan a Nine Inch Nails, but somehow, she missed the song, “The Perfect Drug.” This morning, I’ve been awake for about 45 minutes, and I’m all fucked up. I had a dream just before waking up that everything was fine: nothing happened.…
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Another Day…
We go through life hearing the phrase, “another day, another dollar.” That is fine during the monotony of life, when everything just blends together. When you’ve had a catastrophic even happen, however, another day is a big deal. Then again, it could be, “another day, another pain.” Today was still rough. It is still rough.…
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Can’t Seem to Win
It doesn’t matter what I do, say, or think, I just can’t seem to win. I get a bonus from a job. A day later, a letter saying I fucked up on my taxes and owe more. I try to save time by explaining something and get accused of being insensitive. I try to educate…